Being an artist and a mom takes a lot of focus on keeping things organized and balanced – on a good day I struggle to get things done, but I seem to have completely lost my balance lately.
I’m due to have this little guy any day now, and the waiting game is about to drive me insane. I’m ready to have a cute little baby to snuggle and take care of, and to have my body back and start moving forward with my family and my career. Not knowing what day he’s going to make his grand appearance is making me crazy, and I’m just trying to keep myself busy so I won’t get too impatient.
This has been a tough year. I’ve struggled to keep up with the art side of things -between 20 weeks of morning (ALL DAY) sickness and a handful of minor complications that kept me heading down to Denver for doctor’s appointments, I’ve just been trying to keep my head above the water and keep the few commitments I had made earlier in the year. I missed deadlines for a bunch of juried shows, declined participating in some other invitational type events, and haven’t been providing all of my galleries with new work like I should. I managed to prepare for my two person show in August and keep up with demands for work from galleries that were selling well, and that’s about it.
It’s easy to beat myself up about what I missed this year, and worry about whether it sets me back, but I keep reminding myself that it’s just a season, and that I have to stick to my priorities. Fact is, this is probably the last kid I’ll have, and I want to spend some time enjoying him as a baby just as much as I want to make sure I don’t miss a thing about Aspen as she grows up. My priority this year has been my kids, and as tough as it is to swallow, I know my art will be waiting for me when I get back to a point where I feel well enough and have enough time to really focus on painting again. In the meantime, I’m doing the best that I can, and trying to enjoy the process along the way. It’s not easy, but at least it’s always rewarding!